Satan's Lost his grip on me

Hi, my name's David from Newcastle and I've just finished reading your book. I found it quite inspirational. Can't say I lived a life as extreme as yours but some people have a violence, drink, or drugs addiction, mine I spose is/was women! I've been a bit of a jack the lad with binge drinking, drugs and girls over the years, however over the past few months I have been exploring the christian faith as I have realised that I need to change my ways before its too late. I became increasingly dismayed with human nature and got to the point where I actually disliked people. I have prayed, been prayed for, and read the bible but I'm still not sure if god is listening. How do I know? I've read numerous books similar to yours but feel that yours is quite humble and different from the rest. In 32 yrs I'd never really read a whole book but over the past few months I've read 6 (all biographies from born agains, and the bible) and I'm hungry to learn more, I'm so stubborn though, so I guess I'm still on a journey that sometimes feels like there's an endless road ahead. I completed an Alpha course, though I never really met anyone there that I could relate to in my position as they were mostly already christians?! Since seeking God I don't feel its possible to go back which is actually rather frustrating sometimes as somehow the path that I'm trying to walk now seems much harder! Anyway, I felt compelled to write this after saying the sinners prayer at the back of your book. I hope God is listening to my prayers. Thanks again for an interesting read Rob.

Dear Rob,

I was in the Christian bookshop in Letchworth and I purchased your book using gift vouchers. (I admit I was looking for another book which was out of stock and I thought this looked interesting). My wife looked through it and noticed your book mentioned Highfield School, and various other local areas which I know very well. We may have been in the same year I started at Highfield in 1992. Anyway your testimony is a real blessing and I am so pleased God has blessed you and your family. I am going lend it to my younger brothers as they need to get saved. Thanks very much for writing the book. Are you still in Newcastle or are you back in Hertfordshire? I go to the Hitchin Christian Centre and we have some people who have testimonies about overcoming alcohol addiction. God Bless You and thanks again.

Kind Regards Kishon Mather

Hello Rob

I have just finished reading your book, it was passed to me by someone who found it on the train (Itravel to London every day), someone had wrote in the front of it, read this, it will change your life, it changed mine...they must have just left it on the seat.

Anway, I am not a beliver in god but I do believe that there is after life and that spirits exist. But, after reading your book it has got me thinking....my life at the moment is a mess, even though I have a good job, two lovely children and a lot of good friends. I have recently split from my partner of 25 year (my decision) and no matter what my son tries to do he always gets knocked back. I feel my life at the moment is one big bad circle, always trying but never getting anywhere.

I have been to church many times ( I used to be a choir chirl iin my teens) and when I am at church I always feel a sence of peace and calm and sometimes think that maybe there may be something there, whether thats in my imagination or not I dont know, but as soon as I leave the church the feeling goes and I just carry on with what ever it was I was doing. I also think that if there is supposed to be this all good loving god why did he take my dad from me at the age of 2 and never let me get to know him, in fact why did he take your dad before you had time to make peace with him and why did he take your grandad without letting him fulfill his dying wish, if he (and how do we know hes a he?) is good why would he do those kind of things. Is it because we dont believe and this is his punishment. My friends say (who are religioous) that if you dont repent your sins before you die then you will never have peace in death, how?

As you can see I am very confused about the whole God thing and find it hard to believe that we were all made from Adam & Eve. I have read the bible, allbeit a childrens bible but remember thinking that how can all these stories be real. Now Chrles Darwin and the theory of evolution to me is much more pheasable. Also the bible says there is only one god so why do so many different religions worship different gods, and if we came from the same place why are we different colours?

I am at a loss in my life and are maybe just clutching out to something that is not there becasue I am at a low. I worry for me and I worry most of all for my children, especially my son because I know he is unhappy.

I know this sounds strange but something told me to mail you, I would not normally ever do anything like this..........I would be happy to hear the answers to my thoughts above.

Thank you
Jackie